by Van Canna » Wed Mar 11, 2020 8:59 pm
KNOCK - KNOCK
Post by ... Patrick James
It was the scariest night of my life. In fact, it was almost the last night of my life.
I was 16 years old, and about to come face-to-face with 4 men armed with 1911s and cut off shotguns.
I was over visiting my dad late one night when I saw the Buick pull up behind the house. I pressed my face against the back door of the house and tried to figure out who was coming to visit in the middle of the night.
I didn’t know my dad had any friends who’d come over so late.
Little did I know, these weren’t friends at all.
When I finally caught a glimpse of their weapons, I ran screaming into my dad’s bedroom. It was right about then that I knew I was going to die…
What It Really Feels
Like to Be Helpless
As the men circled the house trying all the ground level windows and doors, I knelt behind my father’s bed shaking in fear and praying as he frantically told the #911 operator our rural address.
The emotions I had at that moment are really too intense to put into words.
I could never do justice to what it feels like to regret all the moments you didn’t spend with loved ones and doing things that actually mattered… all the invitations you declined to spend quality time with friends… all the travelling that you’d never do… the graduation that you would never experience.
I can’t convey to you how miserable it is to know that in a few short minutes, your soul will be disconnected from your body. I can’t tell you about the misery of imagining your mother’s reaction to hearing that her son had been murdered.
But the worst part of it all (and the part that still makes me mad to this day) is knowing that, at that exact moment, my future was squarely in someone else’s hands. Under someone else’s control…
You see, my dad was no stranger to guns. But his little Smith and Wesson 6-shot revolver was no comfort to me—and it would do little to help us against these four adversaries…
Not because 6 shots of .38 special are ineffective, but you have to understand that my dad had probably bought the gun with the same ammunition that was in it.
I don’t think he ever even practiced. It was at that instant that I learned that the mere presence of a gun is no comfort, as I used to believe. You have to know how to use it, and use it effectively.
My dad didn’t. And our lives were going to end because of it…
There was nothing left to do but lay in wait. My dad sprawled out on the floor, phone set down so he could hear what was going on outside the room, with his little revolver pointed at the door, and a small pile of .38 special hollow points scattered on the floor nearby.
All I could do was wait…
Obviously, my life did not end that night, years ago, that I spent in fear on the floor of my dad’s bedroom.
After ten minutes of an agonizing wait that seemed like hours and hours, three State Police cruisers and two county police SUVs had our house surrounded and flooded with spotlights, and the #911 operator was instructing my dad to leave his weapon in the bedroom, and for the two of us to walk out of the room and toward the back door with our hands raised.
The Buick was gone. The only things they had left were fingerprints.
By the grace of God, the men didn’t see fit to gain entry to the house at any cost, because by a simple kick of any one of the windows, they certainly could have- easily. To this day, I have no idea what their intentions were.
Patrick James
Van